would you take it?

if you had that chance to make new memories with the people who once helped create the memories you have now.. that chance to have an old aventure become new again.. that chance to get away from the chaotic environment you exist in.. that chance to live without much worries.. would you take it?

i asked myself, "what would Jesus do?" and frankly, i dont know what he would do. its hard. i'm dealing with family on one hand and lots of responsibilities [including LF ones] in the other.

i dont know what's wrong with me. i'm tearing.. trying to stop the tears and from saying "i'm crying."

whoever you are, i have a favor to ask of you. if you see me, smiling, crying, looking bored, or in any condition, just hug me. please. i just need those types of hugs..

i know i dont do much but complain and talk about how much i'm going through right now.. which is stupid because i know that man's greatest vocation is to love and to suffer.. and i also know that there are so many people who really have and are struggling a lot more than i am.. but i cant help this.

i'm sorry for everything. i'm sorry for being selfish. i dont mean to be depressed like this. i never intended to cry. it wasnt my plan to have you pity me.

this is just who i am now..