breakdown.. again..

i couldnt help it..

i shouldnt go online anymore. i feel like when i get away from the computer, i get away from how i realy feel and from all the things i think of. i feel.. happy. the only sad part about it is that i dont know if its real happiness..

i'm greatful for people the people who took the time to talk to me and give me some sort of advice via chatbox, blog, phone, or in person these past couple of days.. some of you dont even know who you are.. but thank you. thank you all.

i just read something that leila gave me on saturday:
"we shall never learn to know ourselves except by endeavoring to know God; for, beholind His greatnes, we realize our own littleness; His purity shows us our foulness; and by meditating upon His humility, we find how very far we are from being humble." - Saint Teresa of Avila

i need not to say more. i gotta clean before my mom gets home.. plus, i gotta do hw now cuz i'm tired and i really dont feel like staying up. good night.