school

i was asked if i hate school and i replied with a 'sometimes..' i dont hate the actual school, i dont hate the people that work and learn in the school, but i hate the work that comes with school. its why i'm on my art teacher's apple/powerbook right now instead of drawing/painting.

i know its only april and tha school doesnt end til june, but i feel like i really will miss this year. aside from the 'depressed days' that i have, this year was pretty great and is pretty great over all. i'm on good terms with all of my teachers and didnt really have drama with anyone in school. i made lots of new friends in my classes and i feel like i've changed and matured so much more because of them.

speaking of 'depressed days'..

cheska, sorry for making you unhappy. sorry to those who got worried about me. but please don't worry, i'll be all right. if you are, then i ask that you please pray for me because we can never have enough prayers.

yeah, i laugh, i cry.. i do all those things that it says on my banner thingy. but the thing is, i dont do it for myself. i do it for others to fit in. its all for show. when i'm 'depressed' is when i'm most honest. so at least please be happy when you see me depressed because you have two reasons to be: [1] i'm being honest to the world and to myself. [2] if you're happy, you might influence me to be happy. =)

so the reason why i was pissed is cuz too many people were messing around yesterday. there is a time for foolishness, seriousness, and boredness. yesterday was not a day to mess around and BS everything. its why i was all pissed: when it comes to dealing with certain things that are important [like conversion of people's souls], don't mess around. yes, from time to time, we need to crack jokes to lessen the pressure that is upon our shoulders, but when you dont get it right after a third try, or if the project is due tomorrow or sometime soon and you only have hours til there's no more time to work on it and havent completed it yet, then you are messing around too much.

i'm not talking to anyone, but everyone. this is just a fair warning that if you work with me, you really do gotta work.

the pope's funeral was earlier this morning in pacific time. i wish i stayed up to see it.