overflow

fr. raymond told me that he's glad i'm very active in the church. he also said that he hoped it was from an overflow of love for and within my family.

boom! reality check: i need to fix my life.

in my last entry, i talked about how you cant really ask much from God because its already there. he's already giving me the strength to face my problems. its just up to me if i want to do it his way [the hard but good way] or my way [the easy but not-so-good way]. i know that to do, but to actually do it is a totally different thing. its a lot harder.

i dont know what the reason was, but i wanted tonight to last forever. maybe it's because i dont want to face all the yelling i'm gonna get later on, or the fact that i'm actually gonna have to work both on mine and my brother's projects.. who knows? things just didnt turn out the way i expected. in a way, i'm greatful, but in another way, i'm not. i took the risks, i took the chances, i asked the questions.. i gotta face the consequences some time, right? might as well be tomorrow..

*sigh* pray for me.

its five minutes after i originally published this post. i just read anthony andora's blurty and i find it rather odd that we both talked about fr. raymond and the whole 'overflow' thing. i miss him. he left a lasting impression on me.. if you were someone like rose, you'd definitely be able to say this too.