my goodness myspace!

okay, so i have this baby neice. she's not much of a baby anymore--heck she's probably taller than me already--but then again i'm really short.. anyway! i watched her grow up. i used to sleep over her house and take care of her and her younger sister. she's now turning 14 and her sister is turning 5. i go on myspace and look at her cousin's space. he's 15 now. he's sorta like my nephew/cousin kinda type of thing. i dont know how i'm related to him or his older brother, who is 16, but we're related and we've all slept in the same room before.

that older brother drives a very expensive car now and has a really pretty girlfriend. that cousin has a new girl friend again and he constantly takes pictures of them making out. my neice has a boyfriend for who knows how long.. my other neice, the 5 year old one, acts too mature for her age [seriously--she gets her nails done when her mom and older sister does and wears ugg boots during the winter].

anyway, i really cant believe that these people are just growing up. i've seen them before puberty hit and look at 'em now! i'm not even 16 yet, but gosh.. babysitting those kids--even those two boys who are practically my age--makes me feel old enough to say, "they grow up so fast.."

i dunno if i should be proud or a little sad to say i was a part of their lives. i hardly see any of them anymore and when i do, its not like we talk freely like we used to when we were in middle school or whatever.. but i miss those days dearly.

i've missed out on a lot but gain a lot through myspace. its not good for me.