blessed

simple as that.

i make my mistakes and continue to make some.. but we're only human. we can only accomplish so much and even so, not all of those goals we reach are perfect. some may be close to it, but nothing can ever reach perfection except God. nothing will be as perfect as God's love. he'll always be there NO MATTER WHAT.

i've been very jumpy lately. very.. full of random words too.. its odd. when its time to actually have words, i'm at a loss.

i have the mentality of a female but show it through male actions.. haha! does that make sense? i know my limits like a girl should, but i tend to go over those limits and act really.. guyish.. and just blurt things out. they eventually sound like one thing, but dont mean it and eventually i get myself into some doo-doo. [like how i did with cheska at signal hill today.. =/] other times, i'm just really overprotective. i walk people to their houses even tho those people are probably stronger than me and will probably have to defend me if anything were to happen. i use pick up lines on other girls to make them laugh. haha dude.. i'm so freekin.. like a guy..

i dunno. i guess its how i learned how to be courteous. cuz to be a gentleman, you gotta do simple things like open the doors for others.. so what do you do if your a lady? its something i've never really learned to do. i was taught that to be a lady, you pretty much just sit there and let the guys do the work. frankly, i dont think its appropriate to just sit there when there are people like the elderly who need help to get through the door, ya know? plus, NOT all guys are gentlemen.. so i take the chance and open that door, walk people to their cars, and make sure that they come before me.

blech. its late.. haha.