Difference...

Do you remember what ____ said about us about a year ago? He's right, you know... We're very much complementary. You compliment me. When we're together, you either make me look good or you make me look bad. Why? Because you're probably one of the most endearing, outgoing, joyful person I've ever come to know. You're someone I'm definitely not. You bring out the "good" in me and provoke the "bad" in me. Together, we look good in front of people, but its all on the surface.

You and I don't belong as partners. I know that for a fact. We both know that things aren't okay. They haven't been okay in a long, long time. Maybe time just got in between us, maybe the distance... but most definitely, our differences have finally caught up with us. We're not the same kids we were a few years ago, a year ago, a month ago, a week ago, not even a few days ago. We've grown in a lot of different ways and we've changed so much. As hard as I try to maintain this friendship, my effort isn't getting us anywhere.

A friendship needs the participation of both parties in order to be successful. I've done my part and all I ask is that you do yours. I know that we're different people now, but I've asked you to hang out, I've been honest with you, I've taken the few little steps I can to get closer to you again... I've tried. But you just keep ignoring me, rejecting what little I have to offer, pushing back plans we make as if I'm always going to be here to reschedule and "cater to you", as I've always done.

Maybe you don't realize how big of a deal this is to me, how big of a deal you are to me... Yeah, you do say "Hi", you do ask whats wrong when I look sad, but you do it all a little too late. You do it all when I already feel discouraged and when I don't feel like trying anymore.



I wish you read this...