102105; 0629PM

lola lucilla, you will be missed. <33

another one of those bittersweet evenings. same reasons as before, i guess. maybe even sweeter cuz i hung out with some friends before i heard about the tragic news and sped off to cerritos.

i need a ride to santa monica college on sunday. would anyone like to drive me?

gah. i dont know what's going on tomorrow. one thing's for sure: i'll be cleaning because relatives from san diego are going to spend the weekend in my room. gosh, i've missed them.

i should sleep. its going to be yet another long weekend full of extra worries because of my need to find rides.

i swear.. i need AT LEAST a darn permit already!! =/

"i hold onto that thread of hope. always hoping that SOMETHING MAY happen. i've done it before and that turned like sh*t.." -an old friend of mine
please dont mistaken this part of my entry to be about my lola, cuz its not.
its about me. i held onto that thread of hope today, despite the fact that i knew what i wanted wasn't gonna happen. i realzied that i have to act differently this time around. i must act more responsibly for the sake of my well being.