Switching Gears

So in my 9th grade year, a 9th grade English class had a project which consisted of making a CD. I happend to have gotten my hands on a copy of this CD. It was called "Switching Gears" and each student participated in the making of it by picking out a song which related to them in some way. Though I was not in the class, I still remember this. Why? Because it's such a brilliant idea. It's a time capsule on its own. Some how, despite my not being in the class, I, too, have memories attached to the songs on that CD.

Over and over, I write about how much I've changed. And over and over, I'm caught offguard, amazed by how much change has occurred within my life, within my personality. I've been asked/given new tasks, most of which never even crossed my mind. Who know's if I'm really made to do it? One thing's for sure: I'm definitely open to new and more responsibilities. My new philosophy: If someone is asking me to do something, God must be telling me I'm doing something right because I'm being trusted to do more good and serve in different ways in His name.

Another topic that's always been lingering within my mind are tribulations I've recently experienced and witnessed. (There really is a difference between the two...) I'm currently going through many problems due to my lack of skills in the field of communication. I realized that it correlates to the lack of communication I have with God. And once again, I find myself in miserable, lonely situations because I've not prayed as fervently as before and also have not put my trust in Him.

Anyway, I drove my friend's car today. It's a stick shift. Maybe it's why my subject is switching gears. I'm not the same person as I was yesterday. Who knows if I'm better or worse... but I know that I am changed. And I know that I have grown. And that every night, before I go to sleep, for the rest of my life, I will never be the same person that I woke up to be.