its hard

i've been praying for more guidance in my life. i ask that you continue to pray for me too.

thanks, christy! =) i pray that i do too.

i feel like i'm lagging on my ministry work.. especially with Corporal Works of Mercy. sorry, leo. i dunno why but its just not in me now. i feel selfish and inconsiderate because i feel like God is telling me to really fix things at home and with my whole family and get closer with them.

i mean its not just about what God is telling me, or at least what i think he's trying to tell me. its the little things i do now that make me seem so selfish in my own eyes. i cant explain myself, but its just how i feel and its what i've been seeing in myself lately. i really do want to change it and i plan on doing so in a slow and steady manner so that i can really soak it in.

its one thing to say something, and another to do it. dont say things that arent true. dont take on a task when you know you cant or wont do it. dont lie to yourself.
please, try and stop yourself before you forget who you are, what your values are, and who you're living for..

six flags was fun! =D tiring and kind of hot, but it felt great to be there again. a lot of things happen, lots of rides ridden, lots of laughs and bonding.. there was a lot of love. =) i dont really wanna go through it in detail, but it was indeed a blessed day.

i should sleep now. good morning. =D