halo

i'm SLOWLY getting better. i need to learn how to snipe and how to aim and jump. andrew argel improved a lot from playing games with gene and gp yesterday. makes me wonder what would come of me if i play for like 6 hours.. haha.

beach retreat tomorrow. i'm excited. =)

had first practice for lindsay's debut. learned like what.. 2 eight counts? haha. then played halo. hahaha. we MUST teach lindsay and leila before the debut!!

aunt from san diego arrived from philippines today. they stopped by our house to drop off the pasalubong--mainly the magicmic. it was our father's day gift for our dad. i'm glad he liked it. we spent ours on it today. haha. reminded me of courtney at christy's graduation party..

anywhoo, thats all for now. bye.

blank

i cant blog when too many things are on my mind or when there's nothing.

now that its summer, a lot of things have been going on.. like raymond said to me yesterday, "when it rains, it pours." there's a lot of things i have to say about whats been going on. so much that i cant seem to organize it in a specific way so that i can write it out. it sucks.

other times, like now, there arent things going on. i just sit around doing nothing, watching soaps, killing time until the next meeting i'll have to go to. its so empty, silent, sometimes even so peaceful, that thinking causes too much ruckus. i try not to think, therefore i dont have much to blog.

hmm.. i guess this is it for now.. oh! here's some stuff i find funny..

my dad was on the computer. i remembered cheska got her wisdom teeth pulled out and that christy is getting hers out tomorrow [which is today].
me: daddy, did you get you get your wisdom teeth pulled out?
dad: of course not!
me: why not?
dad: because i'm still young. they've never grown!

watching tv..
man: oh, why are you crying dear?
girl: oh.. daddy.. its because i passed a test..
man: anak, then you should be happy!
girl: i cant. it was a pregnancy test!

haha.. okay sorry, i know that was lame but yeah.. k bye.

around 8 and a half hours

thats how much time i spent at the nini's today. =) it rocked! thanks for the invite, Christy!

i'm pretty pooped. i dont really know why i'm up writing this when i should be sleeping..

question: is it true that once you're over someone, those feelings dont come back?
answer: for the most part, i believe it to be true. because if you think about it, if they come back, that means they were never completely gone. meaning you're not really over that someone. so unless you're comepletely over that someone, those feelings will never come back. yeah?

question: how long does it take to recover from a 5 year relationship which was your first relationship ever? [recover means to jump into a new relationship and to not be bitter towards the person anymore..]
answer: seems to be about more than 9 months, but mostly depending if you end up on good terms or not.

question: how long does it take to not be bitter about someone and how does it happen?
answer: a lonnngg butt time. and i dunno how not being bitter happens.

praise God!

beautiful, good day today! =)

music ministry/choir was cancelled and so i took that time to clean up my room, like my mom asked me to. i did some other chores and stuff and i played around with my brother.

around 3:30ish, i asked my parents to drop me off at victors. chilled around til gail and i went to confession. stayed behind and decided to pray a rosary. had time to kill so i decided to do all four mysteries in the candle room of the old church since there was a mass and it was had for me to focus in the blessed sacrement. [note: its really peaceful there..]

6:20ish came around and i finished the rosaries. headed off to the annex where the adult core meeting was. hung out in the back til it was over. helped set up. greeted w/ leila as everyone was doing rosary.

praise and worship was pretty cool. good job to the adults. split. had the weirdest adventure with rose, lindsay, and cheska to open the doors to the classrooms. haha. gave my talk. i dont think it was that bad for the first talk, but i know i could've done better.. a lot better. bonded with the kids in the back. =)

chillage at victor's house again. i came for one main thing: halo. i did five main things: eat, drink, think, laugh, & play MAFIA! =D oh my goodness! it felt so nice to be playing that again.. hehe. kind of new generation with old schoolers! the best!

looking forward to actually getting up early [to do some more chores] and then sing for mass and then try to go to at least part of the meeting for daycare, then show up for christy's grad party. =)

k good night, world!

busy bee

lots of things to do. driving me a little nuts. i'll get through it.

interesting day today. stayed home and watched lion king 2. worked on my talk randomly throughout the day. session with leila and andrew. worked on my talk again but with raymond. then games with the lil bro. then work and still am working on my talk.

choir tomorrow. victor's house for a while. confession. work on talk some more. then prayer meeting. =)

if you wanna go to beach day, go to prayer meeting tomorrow to get your permission slip! k byee!

class of '05

congratulations to all of you. =) sorry i didnt go to anyone's graduation [college or high school]. but anyway, praying for the best for all of you out there! =D

worked on my talk with raymond tonight. quite productive, might i add. we're gonna work on/run through it again tomorrow night. hopefully all will be well for saturday.

so raymond said i should just do it. it being anything. i am a hesitant person and he pointed it out. i guess its cuz i'm not such a big fan of change. i mean i know its gonna happen, and i wont stop it, but i wont like it either. you know?

hmm.. busy day tomorrow, kind of. i wish i'd wake up tho.
call me!! haha. i need a wake up call.. i'm in my summer insomniac mode and i sleep late and long..

anywhoo.. i should sleep now. good morning to you all and congratulations to all you graduates!! =D

i'm done

i'm done with school.. well pretty much. all finals have been taken and finished on time. =) the only thing to worry about is how well i did on them stupid tests.. =/

i think i failed with flying colors on my math final. i took a 1/2 sheet of paper [front side only] of good notes. thats like 19 sections of math out of like 20 something, right? what really bites is that half the test consisted of problems that i didnt take notes on.

so yes, i'm done with school. but i dunno if i'll have to take alg 2b over. [gahh i feel stupid and low..] if so, then i'm done with activities.. haha. i know that i'll pretty much be grounded.

what else..

i was walking to church and i decided to get a bite to eat. at Ted's Burgers, i see my art teacher. i was in line behind him and two other students and he turned around and went "hey nez! what do you want? i'll spot you. =)" i stared at him like he was crazy and said "no its okay! =P" then when he was going to pay, he goes to the lady at the counter, "i'm paying for her too." haha. it was fun eating out with a teacher. then i saw Father Bill there and don. haha. so that cheered me up a bit.

then off to the Blessed Sacrament and i was ALL alone. it felt great. =)

then my dad wouldn't pick up the phone cuz it turned out he was replacing our microwave cuz somehow my mom broke it. so i decided to go back to school and chill at flaggies practice. they're cool. haha. got picked up around an hour later after i called my dad like 4 times. he picked me up when he picked up my brother from school.

so tomorrow, i dunno if i'm going to school or not. depends if anyone wants to do something or if i get tickets for graduations or whatever.. i might just go and chill at my art teacher's class since no one's gonna show up except a few students who are gonna help him clean up his room. i might as well help too. [and no, i'm not sucking up.. i already have an A because i do my work in his class! haha.]

call me if you're doing something during the day aside from getting ready for graduating or graduating. =P and if you're doing something at night.. please call me too. haha.

teacher's pet

so earlier i ditched 5th and went to my history teacher's class cuz i didnt wanna watch 'meet the fockers' in spanish. she decided to set up for a movie using a projector. she was lecturing/introducing the movie and i didnt really belong there as a student, so i took it upon myself to act as a TA. i pulled down the projector screen, took down the vcr, closed the blinds, and set up the projector.

"no wonder you're the favorite.." "suck up.. =P"

i guess it was friendly and appropriate teasing, but for some reason, it caught me off guard. i did it out of common courtesy and logic cuz i knew my teacher was somewhat technologically challenged when it comes to setting up right there and then. [she didnt know how to hook up a dvd player to the tv..].

most of the stuff i do in that class, i do either for fun or out of respect. [just as some examples:] we used to dance waltz and had a swing session and i was teaching others cuz i liked it and thought dancing was fun. i volunteered to take down some of her posters for the human rights activist club because no one bothered to stay back and help--not even the officers.

its not just in the class either. i do these little things everywhere.. prayer meetings, choir practices, maharlika stuff.. whateverz.

random acts of kindness is good, right? i dunno why i'm being over dramatic about being teased about 'sucking up' to the teacher. something's wrong with me.. haha.

anyway, the movie we watched, "beijing bicycles", which was [i think] in mandarin and was subtitled wasn't too shabby. i was laughing during some parts and i fet really bad during others. foreign movies are great. =)

it amazes me how so many people lie just to impress others or to get what they want..

k, this is long enough.

geek status

so i'm trying to be more geeky. well, wrong word to use.. but i'm trying to get a head start on things before i get too lazy. to do so, i went to go get a book at barnes&nobles for my summer reading. i spend like 40 minutes looking for it on the shelves and even called people to make sure i had the right authors, and it turns out they didnt even have the book in stock! =/

i felt bad and i didnt wanna waste my dad's gas [since its getting all expensive again..] and so i decided to order a copy of the book i needed [Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? by Philip Dick] and hopefully it'll come in by next week. while doing that, i decided to pre-order Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. [ohh yes!! totally geek status right there.. haha! =D] then i thought of my mom and realized that since i was already there, i might as well get her a Nicholas Sparks novel that she hasnt read [cuz she's read all of mine.. she's where i get my 'hopeless-romantic-ness' from.. hah!]. well, actually, my dad bought it. but its a good thing cuz both she and i--but not at the same time--will read it, so his money wont be put to waste.

special thanks to my ate rose/ate crissy who brought some stem-cell research stuff that i read through and use for my debate tomorrow. =D

i gotta go get away from this angry, bitter, feeling. lets watch tv for a while, shall we?

[5 minutes later] haha! i just saw this commercial for McDonald's.. i've been inspired to get a little kiddie pool and tan in my backyard while gubbin on some Micky-D's. haha!

hi there

its hot like heck and i wanted to go to the beach earlier but i had no ride. i wanna go to the beach deng it!! beach day is next week, but that's still far!! gahhh.. patience..

i was watching Qpids earlier. its a filipino reality show. i cant really explain it, but its super cute to watch. =)

deng i was suppose to take a nap man.. i have to work hard tonight to work on my debate. =/ i might take one soon and hopefully it wont last like 3 hours or something.. but if it does, i guess it'll be okay so then i wouldnt really fall asleep while working.. haha.

in any case i'm not so sure if i did that great on my english final today. but if its okay cuz then i'll just keep my B.. its not that bad, really. but A's would be great. hopefully he boosts me up or something. haha.

as for history, i went from a low C to some unknown B in a week. =D i'm proud of myself. haha. i seriously need to talk to my teacher about things, but i'm scared that if i do, she'll lower it.. haha. should i take the chance?

k off i go! byee!

Jose Rizal

the play/musical was pretty deng awesome, meng! leo's mustache was cool.. haha. but seriously tho, the whole cast, most especially him and jessica garrison did great! =) if i didnt know how they really acted in real life, i would've thought their scene together was super uber cute! but i do, so it was JUST uber cute. hahaha.

anyway, i'm freaking out. haha. i have to ace my finals, meng.. gahh.

so i've always wondered if i blushed in that girly way. haha. i do, just not in front of the guy. its after you tell someone about the guy. hahaha.

i need to call antoinette or someone cuz o0h man.. haha. i cant even say it.. k byee!

ave star 2oo5

d-d-damn, yo! haha freda's funny.. "tatertots!! woo!!"

so ave star was a blast. =D congratulations to the ave star Jessica Magbitang, to the first runner-up Eddie Sanchez, and to the second runner-up Jessica Garrison!! and to the four others who were part of the 7 who performed, Anthony Andora, Andrew Ledesma, Gretchen Balucanag, and Daniel Wargo, you guys were great! =D God Bless you all!

Chris Cole's [last year's first runner-up] brother, Steven Cole, is cute.. haha! =D

the ride there was interesting. we were playing the alphabet game and we were socking each other and playing paper plates and singing. haha. great stuff, meng!

so we went to sonics afterwards! =D that's when we hung out with some HOJers and some SOLers and pigged out. then GP brought out his acoustic bass, Anthony his guitar, and Gail her.. drum thingy.. forgot what its called, but i jammed on it too. =) everyone was either delirious, hyper, full or all three. haha. fun times, fun times..

the ride home was even more interesting, since Antoinette rode with me, Roxsan, Andrew A., in Gene's car. haha. "diva!!" we talked and socked and played the alphabet game and sang and laughed and laughed and was very loud. hehe. i think Roxsan thinks we're crazee kids.. haha. Gene said stuff and Antoinette followed by saying that girls are stupid and i agreed. haha. home by 12:30am.

not bad. haha. i didnt get the call from the parents til 12:26 which is pretty late considering how much more they've been on my case lately. all in all, Praise God for letting me experience this.

i wanna try out for ave star next year.. haha.

ohh for those that dont know, ave star is like a Catholic version of american idol and its crammed into one eventful night. =)

plans for tomorrow: mass at 6pm so that my dad can come with us after he works, since it is father's day. i might cook or something, depending on what we have here, for father's day. and then give him part one of his gift for father's day: a green long sleeve polo. [part two is a magic mic that my mom asked her relatives to get in philippines.. we wont be getting that til around the 29th i believe..] then maybe drop by my uncle's to drop off his cool gift which i wrapped and made a card for. hehe. then STUDY for FINALS! =/ and i'm so serious about that..

plans for the week: STUDY for finals. kick it with whoever wants to kick it afterschool. might end up going to graduations on thursday, depending if i find rides. friday, movies? then maybe music ministry if my parents let me..

uhm.. what else..

ohh! the church, post-pentecost celebration, United We Praise, was cool! to have soo many people of different races AND ages pumping their arms up to action songs and swaying from right to left as one family.. that's an awesome sight, yo! =D what else can i say? it was just great, meng!

afterwards, a few of them went to go watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith. i ended up getting a call right when we got to AMC [10:45pm] telling me to go home and Charisse, who already spotted and paid for my ticket, drove me home and then went to the movies. i guess i'll just end up seeing it on friday, right, buddy?

everyone's getting hair cuts. Lindsay, Rose, Christy, Cheska, Sandra.. who else? i've been debating on whether to cut mine or not for a couple of months now cuz i want something new but not too new, ya know? but i feel like if i do it, i'll go with the flow.. haha. and plus, i'm not the type to keep my hair all nice so i dunno how things would work.. haha. and its harder for me to fix short hair and with Lindsay's debut and family parties going on, i dunno if i wanna cut it and not be able to fix it. ehh oh well.

okay well this has gone long enough! hope you had fun reading and you're extremely cool for reading this amazingly long and pointless post. good-morrow, world! God Bless! =D

haha deng, i'm in a happy, hyper, mood. Praise God!

soaps

blah. i'm addicted to them. =/

i gotta get a life man..

so anyways, what's next week's adgenda? periods 1 and 4 are on monday. 3 and 5 tuesday. 2 and 6 on wednesday. i have to stay during periods 1, english, and 4, world history, and take those finals.. i must pass my english final with an A to get an A in the class and i dont know what the heck i have to do to get my history grade up.. i have to do my debate on stem-cell research during 3rd, chemistry, as my final. i dont have to show up to 5th, spanish, so i have to find someone who'll sneak me out of school.. haha. and for third, i dont have to show up for 2nd, art, but i'm probably going to since its the cool/kick-back class i have which i'm going to miss very much, and then stay and try to pass my algebra2 final in 6th so that i can get a B in the class--God willing.

so who's up for the beach anytime after 1pm during those days? or how about thursday? or friday? or just to hang out? cuz doode.. i need to get away from school!!

i stayed afterschool today to do make up an assignment. i didnt wanna do this one colored pencil assignment thingy so i ended up painting a chair. no, not doint a painting of a chair.. i literally mean painting a chair. =) i'll put a picture up when i'm done. while doing so, i got some black paint on my pants and its soo not cool cuz the black paint was the non-washable one and pair of pants i wore were my nice gray dickies. =/ i'm so sad..

so tomorrow, i'm looking forward to finishing my chair during 2nd--and this time, i'll be prepared and wear some clothes i wouldnt mind getting paint on. i swear.. haha. mr. soltysik [sol-ti-sick] is cool cuz he lets me do cool things like paint school chairs.. haha. then the last day of instruction for history and algebra. yes, those were my tough classes because i slacked off BIG TIME, but i've learned a lot in those to classes and the teachers were pretty cool. [yes, i said it.. ms. churchill is cool..] i found out my math teacher, mr. sugawara, was a volleyball player at gardena before and that he played with some of my friends afterschool. haha man.. that guy's cool.

okay that's all. good night.

pro-life? pro-choice?

where do i stand?

i claim myself to be pro-life. i'm against abortion and all that stuff and i'm trying to find a reason to be against stem-cell research.

someone asked me a couple of minutes ago whether i'm pro-life or pro-choice and it took me a while to answer pro-life. are pro-life people meant to be for or against stem-cell research? would one choose a tray full of cells or a 43-year-old father of two? i mean.. where would i stand?

i'm suppose to be against stem-cell research on my debate which will take place next monday, but i dont know what to say, really. i cant seem to focus on getting information because its really complex or its just really boring on my part.

blahh.. i'm so torn. for or against stem-cell?! someone help me out! and if you can back up YOUR reasoning with sources, that'd be great too cuz then it'll not only help me out on my personal conflict but for my debate.

okay well i guess i should get off now. i have to get back to doing research.

white

i just had a 'white people' meal. haha. vegetable/chicken salad, baked salmon w/ cheese & tomato, and fruits for desert. haha. that's all. =)

untitled

congratulations to those who made streetdance. =)

the following is not just about streetdance.
i tend to build an image of what things would be like in my head.. in the end, things turn out to be the complete opposite. its quite sad how i say i wont expect anything out of it, but eventually, i end up doing so and everything is shattered. the pieces eventually fall back into place, but its just not the same anymore.

so i was recommended by my history teacher for an '06 ten day leadership summer program thingy where you go to a college campus like john hopkins, NYU, UCLA or stanford or whatever.. i talked to her about it and it turns out i'm the ONLY one she recommended for this leadership program. its around $3000 just for thsoe ten days, but i'd really like to try it. =/ i have a year to save up.

i wish i were 16 already. i'd be able to get a job this summer and spend MY own money that I worked for.. buy gifts for people. if i kept the job during the school year and stuff, i'd be able to send myself to that summer program without having to rely on my parents for anything except maybe transportation. *sigh*.. if only i were 16.. stupid laws... just had to change the working age limit to 16, huh?! gahhhh.

lazi-nez

yep. its who i am. but things call for a change.

i should do something with my insomniac habbits.. maybe tomorrow, i'll end up running around the block or something when i wake up early in the morning. i will wake up in the morning.

until the end of finals week, i'm honestly gonna try and wake up early and do something productive like finish unfinished homework.. haha.

speaking of finals week, which is next week, who wants to go out? any time after 12:30 would probably be best. lets go to the beach or do something free! =) i'm broke like a mug but i still wanna have a good time. kareoke, anyone? like seriously.. i REALLY want to do something. michelle? jinger? cheska? lindsay? geeps? gene? anyone??

ohh i should take advantage of this blog to advertise.. =)


LOVE AND FAITH BEACH DAY
June 30th. you MUST attend the June 25th prayer meeting in order to go to beach day so that you are able to be officially signed up and so that you will be able to receive a permission slip--unless you plan to meet us there.. but we'll be mean and wont share our food! haha joke..

LOVE AND FAITH PRAYER BLOG
Need prayers? just click on the 'need prayers?' image on the right and you'll be directed to the Love and Faith prayer blog. =) you may ask for personal prayers anonymously on the chatterbox, if you'd like. for more information, look at the LF website [a link can also be found somewhere on the right.]

AVE STAR
its like a Catholic version of "American Idol"
Date: Saturday, June 18, 2005
Time: 06:00 pm - 09:30pm (doors open @ 5:30pm)
Location: Hinds Pavillion (Gate 12) @ Pomona Fairplex
Price: $10 until June 13, $12 until June 17 (Pre-sale ONLY)

SAINT PHILOMENA YOUTH MINISTRY CHOIR PRACTICE
there will be a practice on June 25th for the 12:45pm mass which we'll be singing for on the 26th. PLEASE try to attend because this, aside from run through, will be our only practice.

UNITED WE PRAISE
St. Philomena will be hosting a "praise fest" sort of thing on June 17 [this friday]. we will begin promptly at 6 and end around 9pm. if you'd like to join this post-pentacost celebration, feel free to! =) if you need more information, you can contact me and if i cant satisfy your curiosity, i'll give you the contact information of someone who can.. haha.


ha.. i should just help make the LF bulletin.. i'm soo deng bored.. time to sleep.

research on stem-cell research

so i'm in third period right now, not second.. haha. i have to debate negatively on stem-cell research without using religious information/background/opinions. so far, i dont think i can do much cuz its really hard to find negatives since everyone is kinda for it.

blah i'm so bored right now.

i need to pee.

anyway, i just thought i'd drop by since in all honesty, all though its boring, i think blogging is much more exciting than doing research and not finding anything. haha.

its almost lunch. i smell strawberries. i want ice cream. gahh.. why wont the bell ring yet?!

okay well byee.

ps: this keyboard in the nova-net lab [aka, computer lab] is really stiff.. its irritating me for some reason. haha.]

pss: pray for my spanish final. i studied very little and i prayed a rosary earlier during third period. [block schedule is pretty handy after all, eh?].

chaotic

i've been wayy to kick-backed. its all bitting me in the butt.

its funny how every year, i usually complain about how badly i've screwed up.. then the next year, i say "deng.. and i thought i was bad last year.." haha.

procrastinating while there's two weeks of school left isnt such a good idea.

i have a written final exam for spanish tomorrow. i should pray a rosary. yes, i shall do that.

in other news, the being *blank*less phase has ended.. kinda.

Mother Mary, pray for us all.

there's something comforting about it

its not that great to hang around a big place full of faces you hardly even talk to anymore. its how it was during the philippines independence day. i wandered in and out of crowds, hoping that somewhere, i'd be able to find the comfort of.. home.

its where i started and where i ended up.

i was suppose to be at veteran's park 7am-ish. then i decided to ditch it and just go around 9:30ish. then i took too long getting ready here at home and i got there at 10ish. either way, it all worked out for the best because i realized how much i miss being home.

i got back at around 1:30ish [sorry i missed your game, tj..] and my mom asked me, or actually, demanded me to clean my room. i dunno.. there was just something comforting about either being home, being bossed around and actually being willing to do it, and being with family. looking back on little scraps of papers and organizing the old-mixed-cds i have made me realize how i just throw my things around because i have no time to fix it.. because i'm hardly ever home..

being home on a saturday is pretty cool. i got to sing kareoke with my dad. my brother and i.. argued? [haha! not much of a change there.. but i guess this time it was sarcastic and playfully? hahaha!] my mom and i got L&Ls and watched the filipino movies we rented. =)

if my sister were home.. i wouldnt know what would happen. haha. but i bet it'd be cool. along with my mom, we'd probably end up shopping for a father's day gift and end up shopping for ourselves.. haha.

i dunno what else to say, really. yes, a part of me wishes i could've went to the st. cyprian celebration. yes, a part of me wanted to stay at vets longer. yes, a part of me wanted to be out. but i know in the end, nothing would've beat what i've experenced tonight.

thank you, Lord...

school mardi gras

it was cool. =) i wasted $6 on food. haha.

anyway, i thought i'd post that there are new links on this blog. -------->
one being the 'LF prayer blog'. click on it! its really cool! and if you decide to visit the LF website, be sure to check out the media section cuz gene did an awesome job! =D

k byee!

independent

sometimes i think that i'm really not as independent as i claim myself to be.

i dont think i can last being *blank*less. i havent really done so in a longgg time. it makes me wonder how things will turn out in a couple of years.

so tomorrow is the school mardi gras. i dunno why they decided to call it that, but they did. its like the clubs or groups at school that wanted one will have a booth. they can sell food, drinks, [as long as its not too sweet or soda or alcohol or anything illegal] and make money. half is for the club/group they're in and the other goes to the student body. seems like a good thing, right?

i should like.. get off this blog before i get emo again. haha. Lord knows i get emo just watching drama shows and stuff! haha k bye..

success!

i didnt really trip. =) but it was really hott and the igorot guys got blisters from the stage floor. =/

i'm eating soup my dad made earlier right now. it feels good. =) chicken soup heals the soul.

i spent a good 20 minutes taking make up off my face. i hate it. =/ haha. i cant believe i have to put more than i did today on on saturday..

so i guess its offical. i'm not going to the St. Cyprian celebration or HOJ this saturday cuz i gotta go perform at the Philippine Independence Day celebration at veterans park. plus i heard jasmine trias is gonna be there. and this year's special guest is christopher de leon. they're some cool people man! haha.

okay well i'm pooped. after i eat and watch the other soap opera i havent seen, i'm knocking out.

my face itches..

so i'm gonna perform a dance for this multicultural thing. i gotta do sinkil and i'm scared like heck. how does this relate to my face feeling itchy? i had to wear make up and so i have it on and now i cant scratch my face..

so i'm in second right now and i'm not doing anything. i got a grade for organizing the color pencils.. haha. i'm really gonna miss this class when the time comes to leave. its the most and i mean MOST kicked back class i've had in a long time.

TLC!! my tearcher put "waterfalls" on. haha man that's old school!

anyway, i'm sitting here wanting to scratch my face.. haha.

so a lot of things have been missing in my room. i lost my capo clip and a bunch of white tank tops. my mom used it as another excuse to clean and keep my room clean for the summer. i used it as an excuse for everyone else to stay out of my room. haha. i dont think either one will happen.

i'm scared my hair is gonna fall off before i perform. i was suppose to put it in a bun, but i couldnt. my mom helped me but she didnt put it in a bun. i dunno what she did, but its up and looks like a bun. and my hair is really stiff and has a lot of bobby pins.

so walking to second period [since we have block schedule] i had to pick up one of the performee's costumes. i had know idea where she was so i asked some friends who had pe with her. what did they do? they screamed and said "ahh! you're wearing make up!!" haha. funny kids.

okay well i guess i'm done for now..

ohh, Praise God, cuz my dad's colonoscopy went pretty well. =)

colonoscopy

my dad's getting one. from what i know, its not too serious. but yeah.. i dunno.. i got scared when i found out..

i dont have much to say. just please pray for my dad. thanks..

i've been watching tv all afternoon. i feel like a computer potato. haha.

i havent touched homework once. its quite sad, really. but i'll do it..

multicultural week is this week and i'm dancing sinkil on wednesday. i'm scared of the sticks and i cant seem to go one round without tripping over them. =/ i gotta practice all afternoon tomorrow and i'm scared i'm just gonna piss everyone off or mess up the clicker's hands or hit someone in the face with a fan. =/ blahh.. talk about traumatized.

k i'm done. byee.

grounded

haha but ferrealz this time.

i dont mind so much. i'm really gonna stick to being grounded. i'm kinda disappointed in myself tho because the people i'd hate to disappoint are my parents, but staying out later than i said i would disappoints them a lot. =/ i'm a bad child.

i wont be going to the St. Cyprian celebration. who knows if i'll make it to ave star. i'm not mad tho. i'm perfectly okay. and no--i'm not repressing my anger.. haha.

if its any sort of consolation, i had a good weekend.

yesterday, i went to confession. i'm glad father Raymond is back. =) i feel like he really knows the things i'm going through because he sees me. although i dont think he knows me by name yet, he knows who i am. haha. that's cool, meng!

i didnt give my talk. andrew baladad did and i'm glad he did because its helping me realize a few things that i needed to do. it related with the confession session [haha it rhymes! how cool..] with father raymond. talents; use them for the greater glory of God. =)

kicked it at gene's house since his family went camping. it was nice to get back into the groove with the not-so-newbies of LF like raymond, marylou, rose, and victor while kicking it with some of the newbies like roxsan. wrestling is fun! haha.

today, i went to mass. once again, i'd like to say how great it is to have father Raymond back. =) his homily was pretty cool. the sad part is that it made me miss philippines a lot more than i do.

and EVERYONE was there! well not everyone, but it felt nice to see that many people at mass. it was as if it were the old 12pm mass again. =) i miss them good ol' goofy days. haha.

then i went to michelle's house cuz it was her birthday. [window] shopping at cerritos mall and i was sad cuz we didnt see cute guys.. haha. hollister has a lot of clearance and stuff so i think i shall be heading back there as soon as i gain money and get un-grounded. i gotta buy me a cowboy/girl hat too. haha. then we went back and ate and played ball and stuff. fun times. =)

now i'm here and i'm gonna get off cuz i'm not suppse to be on anyway. haha. k byee!

friday nights

i was suppose to be grounded. haha. i went out. got home at 10:30. had guests til 12:30. some kind of grounded, eh?

so what did i do today? or rather.. yesterday?

i went to the argel's afterschool to meet up with andrew. i was gonna ask him for help for my talk but we ended up just talking and having fun cuz Nette was all up in there with her-hott-self for prom! =) their dog, kayla, scratched me in the leg and i started to bleed. haha.

henri came to drop off cj. andrew and i went with henri to drop off cj and nette to sea country cuz the limo was there. pictures. gp and austine were lookin' mighty fine and so did everyone else. haha. that's me in two years man!! haha. they were so late in leaving.. [6:15 when they were suppose to leave 5:30.. haha!]

went back to the argel's and fixed up the cut. then leila came and so her, drew, henri, and i went to the old church to have our meeting/session. it was fun having a guest there. haha. then since we were there, we went to adoration where we met up with gene, carla, and jon.

afterwards, around 9, we were kicking it and decided to invite Father Bill out to dinner. we went to wingstop and lindsay met us up there. =) sadly, gene and carla went home. Father Bill invited a friend, Valentino. Father Bill is hard core!! he ate TWO atomic wings like nothing! haha. we were cracking cool jokes while jon and henri ate NINE atomic wings.

lindsay, henri and jon went to my house afterwards to just kick it. its quite funny.. haha. text messages, loud phone conversations, thumb wrestling.. haha. lindsay left like 11:45ish and then i had to kick them glendale kids out at 12 cuz my mom was being over protective. she said she didnt know who they were and that i'm probably not close to them. hahaha!

its quite funny how i'm closer to henri and jon compared to some of the newbies of LF and how my mom thinks otherwise. haha. i think the fact that they were 20yearold guys from glendale who were alone with me freaked her out. haha.

so what else happened? i'm rambling on and on. haha. oh well.

k so that was my day. i dunno why tho, but i didnt stay at adoration as long as everyone else. something was just really distracting me and i didnt feel like being in front of Jesus because of it. so i thought i'd just come back tomorrow when my head is all cleared. hopefully it'll be clear and i wont be so worried about my talk..

heck i dont even know if i'm still giving it. i havent talked to raymond since last week. haha. i just need structure and more scriptures and quotes to back things up. haha.

k well good night!

hello. =)

havent had much to say except that i'm getting fatter by the minute.. haha. i really shouldnt tho cuz summer is coming and i really do want to go to the beach. haha.

haha lindsay, you're funny..

so tryouts went okay. didnt do too bad.. haha. i wouldnt mind which way it turns out: if i make it or not. it was all in good fun and for exercise anyway.. haha! but into the details: i hit the wall during the first time of doing the routine cuz there wasnt enough room on stage.. haha. second time, i messed up on the booty-shaking-routine, but i caught up. =) facials in general seemed corny and fake to me, but i had fun. haha.

hmm.. what else.. raymond is suppose to come over to work on my talk with me. he said its gonna be along session so hopefully i can get things done. =)

i think thats it.

thank you. i miss you too..

+EDIT+
its 5:23pm and i think raymond forgot about me.. haha.