Reminiscing

April:

• "I wear you."
• "I have trouble commiting to friendships. its why i know so many people but at the same time, i'm not really that close to anyone."
• "its easier to avoid confrontation than to actually do it, but everyone--including the Lord--knows that its better off for your sake and for the well being of everyone who cares about you to deal with problems sooner as opposed to later."

May:

• "its hard for me to accept the fact that i'm getting older. why? because i know that the older i get, the more changes i'll have to go through, the more pain and suffering i have to endure. but at the same time, i know that with the pain and with the suffering comes the joy and happinessand the love you feel which occurs afterwards."
• "relationships are what make my cry the most. not bf/gf type of thing, but relationships in general. no matter if it be a relationship with my siblings, my parents, my friends, or God, i'll cry my heart out given the circumstances. . . blessings. its what they are. i appreciate them oh-so-very much and i praise God for allowing me to meet and have such wonderful people in my life."
• "life is like music. . . love is like music."
• "just hug me. please. i just need those types of hugs.."
• "If I cant help you out of a hole, Ill climb in there with you. Ill smile and say I dont mind."
• "how do you not have a.....?!" hah!
• "Closure."

June:

• "sometimes i think that i'm really not as independent as i claim myself to be."
• "its not that great to hang around a big place full of faces you hardly even talk to anymore. . . i wandered in and out of crowds, hoping that somewhere, i'd be able to find the comfort of.. home."
• -"no wonder you're the favorite.." -"suck up.. =P"

Oh! The joy of reminiscing! Hah! =)

Sometimes, I wonder where I went wrong with some relationships to be feeling the way I do right now. I hold myself accountable because after all, a relationship--any relationship--is a two way street, right? I just wish I know how to make it all up. If it doesn't get any better, I don't think anything band will happen. With that said, should I be worried? Because I am.