Slow down...

...i just want to get to know you.

Now, if that we're true, I'd be talking to you right now... haha!

But on the down low though. I saw someone I haven't seen in a long time. She's younger than me, but she had a baby. I missed her for a while. And just spending 30 seconds in the same room as her to say "hello" and then "see ya!" made me feel so much younger. It's so... different.

I feel like time has passed by. Like a friend of mine wrote in her Xanga, I think I actually want things to slow down. At the same time, I want things to go just a tad bit faster. Spare me the trouble of saying see-ya-laters, writing in yearbooks and holding back a few tears. Save me from this pointless era in my life when I show up to school and work and feel so out of place, purposeless, useless. Take me to somewhere I'd rather be: a party, the beach, a kickback.

Unproductively, I sit in my room like a dog on a leash without anything or anyone but myself tying me down. Why?

I'm week. Migraines. Inconsistent behavior. Insomnia. Social loneliness? Conclusion: depression. (No lie.)