Deng it...

...I freekin' miss YOU.

Flash

In an instant, they were taken away. In an instant, my plans, my mentality, my fears, my prayers, my priorities--my whole world--changed. In an instant, I grew older in a much faster pace than ever before.

Rest In Peace,
Tatay Leon - March 26, 2007
& Mommy Teyang - March 27, 2007
(Philippine time zone).
May perpetual light always shine upon you.
We'll love and miss you.

You know...

...I can totally be a bitch sometimes. It's horrible.

I'm going to grow old with kidney stones and ulcers. Hah. Not eating regularly and not peeing isn't something I should be doing--especially since I'm recovering from bronchitis. I just might need the extra energy from food...

A Daddy-Long-Leg just crawled down my wall in front of the computer and scared the hell out of me. It fell on the floor and I'm scared it might crawl up my leg because I was too slow to kill it.

I'm totally stressed out. Work isn't helping.

Did I write how I only gained one pound in a year but I feel totally fat? So last year, I was sick and I went to the doctors. A regular procedure is to take your weight, temperature and blood pressure. I got weighed this year with a whole bunch of crap like my wallet, phone, my work keys and my house keys, pens and whatever... Probably a total of at least one pound. And even then, I weighed less than what I weighed last year. But for some reason, I still feel fatter than last year. My metabolism sucks.

I have a tendency to not talk to the people I really like. Why? Because I'd hate to embarrass myself in front of them. But I also do the same to the people I don't like. Why? Because I'd hate to embarrass them with what I might say or do to them. Ha.

I'm telling you: I can be a real bitch.

End of story.

P.S. - Excuse the language.

Hanford, California

Smells like cows. The water kinda smells too. Haha. It's just a small, country town that's starting to blossom. It gets real humid and hot. But in the end, when you're with family, it's ALL worth it! =)

Just got back about an hour ago. It was a good break from the Carson scene.

On the drive home, I was looking out the window saw so many stars. Although the glare on the window prevented me to fully take in what nature has to offer, I still saw it more clearly than I ever would if I were down here. I feel like we're so caught up with work and our future that we forget how to relax. I sure did. It's why I have bronchitis right now. =/

I told my co-workers I would be out of town this weekend.
My supervisor asked me one question: "Geez, Nez... when do you ever act like a kid?"
I'm sure she didn't mean childlike, not childish. Honestly, I don't know the answer to that. I've been caught up with scholarships, maharlika, school and work that I can't even find time to properly rest.

And what's worse is that you got me thinking. Well, it's not at all bad... I'm just saying you occupy my mind too much. =P

SDD

Senior Ditch Day's tomorrow. Hah. I found out like 20 minutes ago and people have been knowing since 7:30am today. Damn, I'm late...

Anyway, I've been Youtubing... which really sucks. I gave up myspace cuz it took over my life and now comes Youtube... Back to the subject: I found David Choi. He's a really cool artist. Nice voice and good guitar skills. You should check him out!

Oh tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone just wasting time
no Friday movie nights or romantic candlelights

I'm just having conversations
with the thoughts in my head
all I hear are angels crying
oh won't they just sing instead

It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her
that I love her more than life
more than life, love her more than life

Honestly, this won't do
how is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
but I know I'm such a fool
I'll just take it as a new beginning
but you know I don't feel that way
who will take all this pain away?

I know it's wrong for me to say

Chorus

Talk about a sin
was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time

I know it's wrong for me to say

Chorus
"That Girl" - David Choi

Blogging Mood

I really don't know why I'm blogging so much. I guess I just don't want to forget.

Ienus. 5 of A kind. Jason J. <-- cool stuff. Youtube 'em.
Hold me; never let me go
Scold me; tell me that you love me so
Please me; put me in your mighty grip
Squeeze me; and let the juices of our love drip
Down
"Juices"

Cause I got the sweet sweet lovin'
From that sugar on your lips
And I got the chocolate covered feelin'
From my head to my tips
And I got the mean green jelly bean
Looking for the right scene
Searching for the right scheme
Baby you know what I mean
Cause you got more maple than your syrup
And more fiz than your drink
And you got the tender time for loving
Turning from blue to pink
And you got the juicy flavored lolly pop
Girl you know I kid you not
Why can't this shooter hit the spot
You got my heart all day and night

Oh baby, you got the powder
You got the cream
You got the fat free
You got the lean
Baby, you got the powder
You got the cream
You got the fat free
You got the lean

And girl nothing's as sweet as you
"The Candy Song"

I see you. But do you see me?

So...

I know what I want.

If only...

Forever.

Thank God for tonight. It wasn't right, but it was good--if that makes any sense at all.

No one will ever understand this post.

Me and only me.

New Old and Everlasting

You just gotta groove with it. =) Dancing with older people is fun. But dancing to a dance which older people choreograph... not so much?

Kit's a homie, yo! I'm glad I get to meet and know cool people like him and stuff.

This weekend has been going great so far. Not too chill and not too busy.

Its been a crazy year so far. Not too crazy, but not too chill. =) Get it!