Afraid.

The media can really, and I mean REALLY, influence a person. Don't you think so?

There is a big difference between feeling burndened and feeling overjoyed. One of the two can be felt when serving others wherever you are; the College Center, the park, the Church. Frankly, I do feel the joy in serving. My English homework was to think over what I want to do with my future. I told so many different people yesterday... I really don't know what I'm doing with my life (in all aspects). I was once told that I would be the President of Maharlika and here I am: President. I was also told that I should go into the medical field, particularly into Physical Therapy. And here I am... seriously considering that path.

But I have so much doubt. In myself. In my abilities to learn, to succeed. I feel like I have so little to offer... But still, I have something, so why not share, right?

God, why am I afraid? Why can't I just let you and let go? Can't there just be clear answers to where you want me to go and who you want me to be and what you want me to do?